Happy May Day - coming to an end
Posted on May 1st, 2008
by 
Jennifer
Jennifer
This is in Response to the Questions and Reflections for May 01, 2008:
A lot of things are coming to an end in my life.... my job did almost a month ago, by my choice, to move on to something that would stretch my soul and challenge me.
My grandmother and my dad's only aunt (Ida) are both the oldest relatives I have and in Ida's case, the only one I have left in that family. Soon, it will be just my parents and I, given my brother's death 13 years ago. It seems like a death in my family, a homecoming and an end, given that I do not have children -- my family will end with me.
I want to see my fears coming to an end, taking risks on living the joyous life that I was meant to, learning the lessons I was born to, and loving the journey no matter where it takes me.
And as things come to an end, I am remind, that there are only cycles and no real ends and no real beginnings, just change.... life goes on, matter exists, the questions is, am I focused on what matters and what it means to exist?
What's not coming to an end and what I hope blossoms for me, like the early spring daffodils are the friends that stand by me when the calendar says spring and my heart says winter ice storm, the friends who don't even know what kind of impact they have on my life, the fire and passion that has been hibernating under a few foot of snow in my life for the past few years.... I can see a little green sprout, now it's time to tend to it and watch what divine things grow.
Namaste, Jen
My grandmother and my dad's only aunt (Ida) are both the oldest relatives I have and in Ida's case, the only one I have left in that family. Soon, it will be just my parents and I, given my brother's death 13 years ago. It seems like a death in my family, a homecoming and an end, given that I do not have children -- my family will end with me.
I want to see my fears coming to an end, taking risks on living the joyous life that I was meant to, learning the lessons I was born to, and loving the journey no matter where it takes me.
And as things come to an end, I am remind, that there are only cycles and no real ends and no real beginnings, just change.... life goes on, matter exists, the questions is, am I focused on what matters and what it means to exist?
What's not coming to an end and what I hope blossoms for me, like the early spring daffodils are the friends that stand by me when the calendar says spring and my heart says winter ice storm, the friends who don't even know what kind of impact they have on my life, the fire and passion that has been hibernating under a few foot of snow in my life for the past few years.... I can see a little green sprout, now it's time to tend to it and watch what divine things grow.
Namaste, Jen
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